
I thought I'd ruin your friends list with this amazing picture edited by
heysaydie because I can and I think the whole ninoxgambit combination is amazing (because it's so true you know? The whole poker cards thing). I'm just writing because I'm actually seeing if I can wait for her to come back.
Nothing has really happened to me lately, other than being fangirl crazy and getting eyelash glue in my eye which has resulted in me being a mutant and watching Sexy Commando (seriously, Masaru, what) and therefore having my signature song being a Penicillin song but... I don't actually resent that.
I am going to put that video on here because I just want to scar your faces some more.
To be super honest, I don't really know what Hakuei is doing in this PV at all other than being sort of convulsive all the time and singing really weird high notes like 「僕が抱きしめて上げ
るううう!」 which I swear I need to sing at karaoke in the same way. Seriously. In maybe golden arm rings and a white long sleeved pajama top. I swear. And pretend to do a shredding crazy guitar solo.
Actually haha don't get me started on guitars, because this just reminds me of how STUPID artist guitars are.
On another note, I am totally into this right now:

I don't even know, but I like it so whatever hahaha.
I'm going to be studying Japanese in September. Which is totally different from what I was going to do in the first place (which is what, fashion? art? haha) and it's not that I don't like it anymore but I think there are people who can do that sort of thing naturally and there are people who take about double the time to do something like it and I'm in the latter half. Only in the whole design/pattern department because I am so inept in visualising alterations to your basic block that I probably need to go to pre-fashion school before I even get a degree in it.
Talking about that really makes me angry actually haha because I shouldn't have gone and done art foundation to begin with and I should have been totally more
realistic about my choices and about my future than be all wishy-washy about it in my teens but it's not like you can turn back time and unmeet the people you've met so I really shouldn't be saying all this to begin with.
I think basically, the story is that I was a douchebag, and I met douchebag people (I dot drunk, I failed, I got more drunk with failed people who are totally fail and got totally reckless) and then complained about being friends with douchebag zombies when I was still a douchebag myself (but much less a zombie... this totally needs explaining but I really don't want to go into it right now, maybe I will when I feel like I am 'in that zone' but if you want to know, by all means asks, you can get the long version of my year until now haha)
In retrospect, I am a lot better now, as a person, and I am so glad I can actually say that because I have really hated seeing what I was doing to myself if only what, three years ago until now. Until probably around february this year and some time in... November? When I realised what a load of douchebag I really was and I ended up crying in the middle of Manchester with some fashion classmates (who some are now ex-Manchester-fashion-classmates and ex-ex since some have left the course too).
There seems to be way too much douchebag going on in this entry but haha.
This makes no sense when I read back on it but it does to me and I guess that's really all that matters.
I still draw though and I still do stuff. Other than fangirl. Like I'm probably going to get my piano retuned and play SR covers and not strut around and be naked in mini dresses and hope my dad morphs into Kameda but. Basically. I think I enjoy stuff I enjoyed before I went to sixth form. Which I changed because people around me made me turn into this thing I really wasn't and I thought that was how you had to be to be accepted but hey, screw them, because I don't even know any of those people any more.
It's sad to say I am happy I cut a lot of people out of my life, but when you feel this much less heavy with carrying this 'image' you don't really want, I don't really care. I am just glad to be me.
Of course now I am listening to Dejavu which is
heysaydie's signature song (YES, YES I SAID IT PUBLICLY, WHATCHA GONNA DO? MAUL ME WITH ENGLISH CATS? DRINK SOME PROTEIN? STRUT INTO MY FACE?)
God this PV is so BAD haha here have some more scars:
WHAT IS WITH THAT MAKE-UP?!
デジャブーーーI'm going to leave you with this hilarious picture (which you might not get if you don't know owarai combis)

トゥース!ALSO, I AM IN HONG KONG DISNEYLAND. IN THE HOLLYWOOD HOTEL. OH YEAAAAAAH.